As of recently, I have been recieving comments and stuff along the lines of saying that I don't pay attention to my fans, and that I never respond to fan art or questions or just about anything; and they're right. I don't respond to these things anymore, but it isn't because i've become a fame-striven individual; it's because people treat me like a famous person, which is much less the case it is. I am also only one person. ;w;
You see, I receive fan art pretty fluently. I love these fan arts; they make me smile and make me thinks that I am doing something right in the ways i'm trying to be active and stuff. However, this leaves me with a great number of amazing peeps who want feedback, which normally isn't a problem other than the fact that there are a great many people wanting that feedback to see how much I like the thing. I could just leave a generic message saying "Oh, I love this! Thanks~ >w<", favorite it, and then be on my way, but it's gotten to the point that i'm really afraid to try and catch up on this because everything's just gonna loop again no matter what I try to do. People will draw fanart, they want feedback, too many fanarts, scared to respond, and if I try to catch up, that fear's just gonna re-emerge again and more people will be dissappointed.
But you know what? Wanting feedback for something you drew isn't bad at all. In all honesty, the only thing that is bad is my lack of dealing with this responsibility of having amazing fans that do draw me things. I could put the blame of my increasing fear of socializing and being a disappointment, but that is just a silly thing anyways and I don't deserve pity and that's also a personal thing. It's all just a really sad situation, and I hate to see people sad through something that is my fault.
Just . . . i'm really sorry about everything. ;w;